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Hello Stillness!

Sunday, 01. March 2009

Lately I have heard from many of my clients – especially from those who have chosen to allow the return of the Feminine Energy into their life – that all of a sudden there are Phases of Stillness in their life. A new rhythm arises; a dance between times of enormous inspiration and creativity, followed by times of doing nothing, of a great need for stillness.

For me this rhythm, this swinging back and forth between activity and inactivity is so much a part of my life that I seldom think about it. I just notice how the Feminine Energy is embodied in these rhythms - something that we accept quite easily in the changes of the seasons, the phases of the moon and even in the natural rhythms of our bodies.

Maybe the return of these natural rhythms seems so unfamiliar because for a long time only the masculine energy was leading us. And the masculine energy flows much more straight and even. This is not better or worse – just different. What a pity, that for so long we thought that everybody had to follow this. What a pity, that so often we forced ourselves to work all the time, to be productive all the time, to be active all the time.

Already as a child I began to replace phases of stillness that didn’t have a natural space in my life with long extensive phases of illness. Illness was the only way for me to allow myself to be at ease for a while. I kept this up for years: weeks of activity and then a cold. Then I became active again and after that a flu. I never considered that I could voluntarily retreat and go into stillness – without being ill.

When I decided that I didn’t want to be sick so often I really started to reflect on it. Suddenly the meaning of being ill became clear to me, the significance of these phases. They weren’t because I liked to have a cold, but because I allowed myself to get cozy and rest on the sofa with the feeling that right now I don’t have to do anything. The more I began to connect with my own natural rhythms, the less I needed the diseases. And it’s interesting to see that I am much more efficient and able to let much more energy flow when I follow my own rhythm.

I also discovered that it is a quality of the Feminine Energy to really sink deeply into the stillness in order to get into contact with the New. Whatever this New may be. To be present in the moment and let the New pour in. From outside it may look like you aren’t doing anything but within yourself you are letting so many new potentials and so much new energy pour in. I feel our work growing and abundance flowing. And I let it happen.

It is also important to live life in our natural rhythm for the healing process, for the integration of lost aspects. When shall our lost aspects return home if we are never in stillness? How can our body rejuvenate and release old energies? How can we get deeper in touch with our own soul?

My own rhythm is the best manager you can imagine. And the more I listen to this rhythm the more my whole life falls into place. There are days full of appointments, where the telephone doesn’t stop ringing and one email comes in right after the other. And then there are days when stillness unfolds. Within and without. There is nothing to do.

It is a kind of love that I give to myself. Some of my clients wonder why I begin my sessions so much later in the winter than in the summer. Even the mind says that eight o’clock always has to be eight o’clock – it is not true. It is loving to consider what is comfortable for me, where I feel at ease. And I know that after every winter comes the summer again. And after each period of stillness new activity arises bringing with it the joy of being creative. Nowadays I welcome the times of inactivity and stillness. I know what feels good for me in these times. I know how much I can deal with and what is better to leave until a phase of activity returns.

How do you handle your times of inactivity and stillness? Do they still have to arrive in your life through disease or reaching the point where “everything is too much, I can’t stand it any longer”? Or do you love your stillness and appreciate it? There is so much to discover in these times of stillness. Sophia invites us to experience what stillness really means and how much joy it can bring.