So this morning started just beautifully. Today is my day off. From time to time I take a random day during the week just for myself. It doesn’t mean that I don’t do what I like, like writing this for example. But it means no appointments, no groceries shopping, no doing my taxes or reorganizing my desk. It means not having to get up when I usually get up. And trust me, during the week this is much, much fun!

I checked my email and got this wonderful feedback for my new e-book. The nice person asked me if I thought about posting this e-book in another forum as well, so this particular group of people can read it. This question that he asked is very valuable to me, so I'd like to share my thoughts about it with you.

Many of you probably know this feeling of being part of a group, a movement, a club or an organization. During certain times in our lives it can be very soothing to know that we are part of this group. It's easier to say: We are all a little crazy. We all are doing this. Instead of admitting: I am doing this. Especially for spiritual people it can seem necessary to affiliate with certain groups, with a certain way of thinking, or just connecting with a spiritual teacher. Same thing. And as I said, during certain periods of your life, this can help you and encourage you to step into your own energy.

But there comes a moment, and this moment evolves naturally, where you no longer need "them". It's like your parents offering to give money and you smile, because it's so beautiful that they are there for you, but you no longer need it. This is the most beautiful experience for me. I no longer need it. I no longer believe that I am a small member of a bigger group. I no longer believe that I need the validation of others. This is a big step for me.

I used to be very needy. I attended spiritual conferences hoping that the big people up there would notice me. I truly waited with all my heart that for them to finally call me up there. I wanted the channel, or spiritual teacher to interrupt her workshop and say: "We ask Lea Hamann to come up here. She sure is special." And each time I was disappointed and felt small and unimportant. Until I allowed myself to hear this true call that I was waiting for. The call of my soul. She calls me every day. And she sure thinks I'm special. In a way I had to learn to receive what I need. I couldn’t wait for someone else to do it for me. And it wouldn’t have been the same.

This is the first revelation I had. But there's more.

Not long ago my soul showed me many little trees. They were all close together. Then one of these saplings was taken and planted on a big field. To grow tall and stretch out his branches, the little tree needs a lot of space. She told me that we can't grow into our full potential by growing in the shadow of someone else, for example a group or a spiritual teacher we put on a pedestal. A young tree cannot grow in the shadow of a big old tree. There is just not enough space, light and nourishment in the earth. Therefore we plant a young tree somewhere else.

In a way, it feels like that little tree is me. I need to stand alone. (Didn’t Yeshua say: You will stand as a solitary one?) I need my space. I cannot be running around and advertising, waiting for others to support me. My soul is already doing it for me. My job is being here. Breathing. Allowing. Receiving. Discovering. Who am I? What is my way of doing things? And the small part within me that still believes we need someone else to be successful can observe and be surprised.

What I am creating comes out of nothingness into the world. It's not out there. I don’t have to go looking for it. And the dear friends that will enjoy and share this creation with me are not this group or that group. They will find me when the time is right. I will not rush this time of sweet beginning. Isn't it wonderful to start something new? My German website has now more than 700 readers every day, most of them are my clients, readers of Sophia Channels, they buy our CDs, come to our workshops and most of all - they have become friends. And now the international site can start unfolding.

No need to hurry. This baby needs time.