I’d like to take this time to talk to you about Gentleness; in order to invite you to get a new feeling or perhaps your first feeling for this energy of “Gentleness”.

Gentleness is an energy that emerges when you feel safe, when you become still, when you come closer to your own soul, to your own source. Gentleness can be found whenever you don’t force yourself, whenever you don’t force others, whenever you simply are.

This is an element that is currently missing on your earth; this gentleness that allows us to take each step more slowly. That allows our bodies more time to heal. That allows us to move more gracefully. That allows us to speak more tenderly, to let our words become a bit softer, a bit more loving. This gentleness is something that is missing, that is missing within the lives of most human beings.

Most people have learnt that when you are aiming to reach a certain goal it doesn’t matter how you go about achieving it. The main thing is that you accomplish your goal. It doesn’t matter how rough you are, how badly you treat your body, if you ignore your feelings or upset others in the process.

I would like to tell you that I'm confused about just one thing... because you talk about feeling the belly while breathing... And well, all the loving energy I feel now when I'm quiet is in my heart. And when I breathe I feel this big energy inside it, but I have never paid attention to my belly... Maybe that's what I'm doing wrong!!

I've never taken any classes in meditation or things like that, I have always been... let's say a self-taught person, so I really don't know anything about where to feel my energy or how to breathe. I read what you wrote on your website about the three steps to breathing and I have done that, but as I said before, I have never paid any attention to what's going on inside my belly. Is this where the feminine energy comes from? What about what I feel inside my heart?

By the way... when I was reading what Mary Magdalene said I felt this huge energy in my heart and even more when I repeated: "I'm receiving this New Energy." It was amazing. I have so many things in my head... I'm sorry!! The thing is that no one has ever answered me before like you have done.

When the soul of us is flowing into our body right after being born it slowly sinks down deeper. I see it like a tender mist settling down in our body, making us alive and filling us with energy. Breath by breath we draw our soul energy into our body. Unfortunately many people experience very traumatic things during their infancy. When we feel great pain, loneliness, being rejected or abandoned, we tend to stop breathing deeply in our belly. We send the signal to our soul: Stop, don’t come in any further. It is horrible here! So we stop our natural evolvement. We interrupt a natural process.

You can even check for this interruption. Lay flat on your back and let your breath become soft. Put one hand on your belly (where your belly button is) and feel the rising and falling of your belly while you breathe. How much is your belly open and flowing with your breath? Have you ever seen a sleeping baby breathing? Does your belly rise as outrageously as the belly of a newborn baby? My belly was much like a rock hard board when I felt my breath for the first time. Over the years it has melted with many loving breaths.

Separated from the flow of our soul and from our breath (which is the same) we change from a vibrant alive child to a jaded, withdrawn grown-up. We experience our lives by being in our heads and shoulders. And most people never do connect deeply in their belly. So we are like houses without foundations, like trees without trunks and strong roots. Little things shake us, throw us off balance and we constantly feel afraid, cold and alone.

What I’ve learned so far by working with the feminine energy is that the unfolding of a human being truly begins when we are open enough to live in our bellies. For when we occupy our center and reconnect with our soul we stop feeling alone and helpless. We become still and we learn to channel our energy through our bodies in a natural graceful way. We no longer have to say: My head or my heart is exploding - we are able to let energy flow through us more easily. Even our abundance starts flowing more easily because there isn’t as much disconnection going on in our lives. Being ungrounded and disconnected to our belly is a big reason for being poor.

Another reason for people not letting their energy flow into their belly is that many have learned that our bellies and everything below our waist is not pure. Many religions have made us judge our body and our natural energy. So many people choose to focus on their hearts only. I don’t say that this is wrong in any way, I just want to emphasize that our true strength can only be here and available to us when we fully inhabit our body -not just the upper half. Many people I work with have never consciously felt energy flowing through their legs. They’ve never felt deeply connected with the earth and their bodies. They are uprooted in a way. For me, feminine strength lives in the stillness of our lower body. Feet, legs, hips and belly can radiate such a wonderful energy. It's not sexual; it's just a natural energy, strong and soft at the same time.

About being self-taught: that is great. There are many people out there who aren’t very loving. It's great to walk by them and not listen when their words are harsh and hurtful (and come from the mind). For me I had to learn to accept assistance from people who live and breathe this soul love. These are the people that I listen to, that I give permission to tell me unpleasant truths about myself. But I make sure that they come from love and appreciation for me, not from judgment and malice. Someone who doesn’t love me has no permission to tell me anything. So I would say to keep your door always closed to judgment but always open to loving support. This can come from anywhere. It can come from me, writing these words, it can come through a smile, a book that touches you, a friend or even an angel friend such as Sophia.

Keep breathing, keep discovering. Lovingly, Lea

Hi Lea! This is the first time I have ever heard your name. I was on the website www.angelesamor.org and the article regarding abundance and the feminine side really caught my attention. Then, I decided to look up your name and this website www.es.eelea.com came up so I suppose it's yours. There I read what Mary Magdalene said about our essence. And I must say that for a long time I have felt that I don't belong anywhere. My heart has been telling me to express myself, but I have always been very shy and insecure. I love to create new things, but then I think that they aren’t any good and I should just work like everyone else does, like I used to do - but I feel inside that this is not the answer, so since 2007 I haven't had a "normal job". I make a living from the jewelry I make; all of the designs are unique, I don't repeat them. I usually sell them in Spanish Language Schools (I live in Cuernavaca, Mexico), but with all the hype about the flu students have stopped coming; there are only a few and I haven't sold a thing for a long time :( I don't know what to do because as you wrote in your article about abundance I need my space too; I would really love to have my own home; my own place but I have no money :( Well, I really don't know if you are going to answer... as this has happened to me before. Anyway... thank you for your light and writings.

I know many beautiful people who are creative and sensitive to energies who have great difficulty in dealing with everyday life here on earth. I just came back from shopping for groceries and I have to say that it shocks me sometimes how rude, how stressed out and scared people are. Yes, that’s life here on earth. It takes some deep loving breaths for me to reconnect with the love of my soul. The lack of love that surrounds us is sometimes hard to bear. I always have to hear the loving voice of my soul to help me stay balanced. She explains to me why this woman is so rude to me and why this man behind me is so angry at everyone. And only when I start understanding that most people are very, very unhappy, can I understand why they act the way they do.

When I read your story I feel this innocent child that is just hurt and disappointed by the way people have treated you. And yes, this innocent beautiful child is absolutely right to be upset and feel like giving up. Because out there - where the other people are, and even in our families – there isn’t enough love for you. This child has never gotten the love it truly needs and deserves.

In my childhood I felt great sadness because I didn’t get the love that I needed to feel safe and to open up my full potential. But when I was finished with looking for love - out there - I started to look for love in here. I started breathing and began to feel that a sweet feeling of stillness comes when I breathe. “Where did it come from?” I asked myself. I didn’t do it. There must be something like a pool of stillness and sweetness inside of me. And so I started to connect with this pool of love in my belly every day. Sometimes I had to run away from this love, because it seemed like too much and I wasn’t used to being so loved. But I always came back. And my soul was always right there, ready to give me more love, more abundance, more appreciation than ever before. So I made up for all the love that wasn’t there in my childhood. I just breathe this love now and it doesn’t matter even how old we are. The love we missed, the love we lacked is there waiting for us. Waiting for us to become still and look inside.

Yes, some people will laugh. How can you feel loved just by breathing in your belly. And some years ago I would have laughed with them. But today I feel that this is what reconnecting with myself really means: to learn how to receive love, energy and abundance from my soul.

Back to your story. As long as you stay in this feeling of disappointment and sadness, your energy won't be able to flow freely. We all know that disappointment can lead us to giving up and closing our inner doors. But having a closed door isn't a great idea for receiving abundance. Imagine your soul trying to give you abundance when you have given up and your door is closed. It doesn’t work.

Can you start reconnecting with this loving, beautiful voice deep inside you that wants to show you what your next step in life can be? Maybe you can use this quiet time, where business is slow to gain a deeper connection with yourself. So let this disappointed child who never felt loved come in your breath and from there into the arms of your soul. Your mind won't understand, but your intuitive feeling will know how to do that.

I remember a turning point in my life, when all my money was gone, I was really sick and could hardly walk straight and I had no idea how I could survive. I didn’t see a solution. I just sat down in my apartment, ready to cry - when all of a sudden I felt this great love deep within me. She just kept saying: It's okay. Everything is going to be just fine. I love you so much. I will keep you so safe. I love you. I love you. And in that moment I knew, yes I was afraid of the future and I had no idea how to earn money and no rich relatives or parents to pull me out of this situation, but I had this loving beautiful voice that kept loving me and helping me to find my way to a new kind of life. I had nothing to lose. I had nothing at all. (I didn’t even have one piece of furniture in my one room apartment.)

So please don’t doubt yourself, don’t judge yourself but start listening to your heart, your intuition, your soul, your inner voice - whatever you want to call it. For me, this time in my life was important because it helped me to grow up. I am now independent, abundant, healthy and happy in my life. Not because other people loved me. It all happened because my soul loves me. I breathe and talk with her every day. Letting her guide me. I am allowing her gentleness and grace in my life. And yes, she also fills my bank account. But I keep my inner door wide open, ready to receive. Are you willing to open up to your soul instead of waiting for the world to change?

Lovingly, Lea

Can you tell me what Sophia says to your older clients like me about paying down old debts like a mortgage and loans taken out to help the kids through school? I tend to feel guilty about using my newly created money for new purchases...like a seminar or wanting to buy new furniture...when we still owe money to the bank and by the looks of things will for many more years to come. Back in my new age days I tried visualization, and that didn't do anything to pay off our bills, but it did help me to relax a bit and be grateful that our credit was good enough to be trusted with a loan. Now as I move into the new energy I want to be done with our old debts. Thank you.

This is a really good question and I guess one that many people can relate to it. Old debts can take so many forms. Whether it is time that someone once gave you, a student loan, a loan to buy a house or emotional debts you think you owe someone - it's all old debt.

Every old debt is energy just like anything else. The question is: Are you willing to let this energy flow or are you keeping it stuck? Is your mind still in charge of your debt? Your mind will tell you a story about debt. It will tell you exactly how long it will take to repay your debt and how much sacrifice and misery will be required. Your mind is an expert in keeping you stuck and limited. But have you ever asked your soul what you should do with your debt?

Sophia tells me quite clearly: Don't do anything with it (at least not from your mind).

Debt is just a sign that you allowed your abundance level to sink below the zero point. Are you willing to relax, breathe and let your new energy of abundance flow again and fill the void?

For my friends who don’t know how I live my spirituality, I want to add the following: I don’t think it is wise to run from your bank statement, to ignore it or try to fool yourself about the reality of it. Soul doesn't need any of these tricks. I know from my experience that allowing abundance into my life has filled the emptiness of lack and debt. It felt like allowing a flood to flow over parched land. When you breathe and receive abundance your debts will disappear over time. They will disappear on the outside because every part of you on the inside is just overflowing with energy and love. And this process will take some time, some patience and some breathing.

I personally never got into visualization much because really, how can I visualize something that I don’t know exists? I was a person who lived her life in complete lack of abundance. How could I visualize abundance properly? I didn’t have any feeling or connection with it. So for me as an absolute beginner, I had to trust my soul and start breathing in her love and the energy that comes with it. My soul had to feed me abundance in tiny portions. Every day a little sip more. So after a while my feeling opened up a little bit further and I could start to taste what it is like to have money, to be a little more free and wealthy. (If you already have a connection with abundance that flows effortlessly and lovingly then go ahead and connect with it for inspiration. But if you are a beginner like me, trust your soul and accept this new experience slowly and in tiny portions.)

Accepting wealth forces us to acknowledge that we are much bigger than the mind wants us to believe. And this can be a little scary. For me personally lack of money was an experience that I created from very early on. While my life kept changing and shifting, lack of money was a true friend - it never changed. It took me a long time for a lot of trust had to grow between me and my soul until I was ready to let go of this good old friend that had kept me so safe. Yes, lack of money is limiting, but these limitations felt so comfortable and reassuring. Nothing unexpected could ever happen to me - because I wouldn’t have the money to do it. To discover that there is another type of safety available was a grand revelation. My soul gives me another kind of stability. She never leaves me. And she enables me instead of disabling me. She wants me to participate in life in a safe and loving way.

Your debt has served a purpose in your life. When you start to accept more love and more abundance from your soul you will discover that you suddenly no longer need it. It will seem like a crutch that you had to use while your leg wasn't strong enough to walk on your own. But now you can walk just fine without it.

And to come back to your question - let the new abundance that comes in flow everywhere in your life. Just like you allow your breath to heal and transform your whole body without directing and controlling its flow. You don’t have to mentally push yourself to only breathe into your left arm. There is a deeper wisdom within you that knows exactly where your breath is needed most. Can you allow the new abundance to flow everywhere she wants to? She will heal the old wounds of lack and debt. She will bring so much joy and creativity in your life. And don’t underestimate her and think that old debt is stronger than new abundance. In the end she will win. Have fun breathing and letting abundance flow for you.

Lovingly, Lea

A topic that keeps popping up in my sessions is "abundance" and wealth. My work is designed to teach the feminine way to bring abundance to this earth. I am aware that in our schools and businesses the masculine way of doing things is predominant. To be bold, to take action, to be successful and work, work, work. But this way of life is not appealing to me.

What is my way? What is the feminine way to bring abundance into this world? This is much more interesting to me. Some of you have heard of the invitation that Sophia gave me last year. She invited me to spend some time on the island of Kauai. It took me a while to accept this gift but this summer we finally went. My next project is allowing a house to come into my life. A house is very feminine. A place here on earth that provides warmth, safety and grounding - what could be more feminine? I am learning right now how to accept this form of love into my life. I don’t want to stay stuck in old beliefs and fearful thoughts; I really want to receive what is mine.

For me, it all begins with feeling. To feel that there is a source deep within me - an ocean of energy - where everything exists already. It's like carrying an invisible inheritance inside of me. To open this inner door of receiving once more - that is what I'm learning right now. This natural connection to my abundance that has been interrupted for so long.

It’s true that as women we have a special ability to bring forth abundance. It's not better or worse than the masculine way, just completely different. And we are certainly strongest when we go with our nature instead of against it. When we stop neglecting our essence to conform to old beliefs we will have joy in our lives once again. Only then can we learn to embrace our true strength, pride and greatness.

Matthias mentioned last week reading somewhere that the majority of women still work in dead end jobs and earn a lot less money than men. My feeling tells me that our world is still operating in a very masculine way. And who profits the most by doing things the masculine way? Men of course! (Or let's say human beings who love to express their masculine energy.) Now I know that I will never be able to compete with a man in being a man. He will always win, because, let's face it, I am not a very convincing man - I am a woman. I can't force myself to live the masculine way. It's not me. But if each of us finds a way to live our true strength - then men and women will each be able to bring in money, wealth and abundance – although in very different ways.

Maybe this will resolve the whole issue of gender equality. When women start to trust their abilities and strength and allow themselves to enjoy being a woman. When men start living and playing with their masculine energy without having to force others to do it the same way. Perhaps someday every human being will have the opportunity to learn about the masculine way and the feminine way and be able to choose the most beautiful parts from each. Perhaps then both ways will be recognized as beautiful.

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And so we begin together.

As I, Sophia, enter into this space to be with you, to spend some time with you, to look with you at all that is changing within your life right now. To look back at all that has changed already and to look forward at what is going to change.

It’s a pleasure for me to be with you. And before we begin I want to spend some time just being with you, just being in your presence. I want to let my breath flow, focus my awareness on you and enjoy this now moment.

I take this time to feel my pride in you; the pride that I carry within, pride in you and your path. To feel my joy for everything that is unfolding and surfacing on earth right now. To feel my joy that you are here, to feel my joy for your courage, this deep inner strength that lives within you, and your openness that allows you to take a further step over and over again - not holding onto what seemed to be right yesterday but continuing to walk into the New, into the unknown without fear.

And so we begin together.

As I, Sophia, enter this Now moment, enter here in order to be close to you, in order to spend some time with you. Today we meet in a new way. There is no one else here except you and I. It is an intimate, private gathering where you are invited to become so still - to come close to your inner being, to let yourself sink deeply into your body, to arrive where you are right now.

It’s not about doing anything, achieving anything. It’s about just being here to let your breath flow, to let yourself be held, and if you like to listen to me; to listen to my energy that sounds to you from beyond, beyond the edges of the earth, in a different tone, a different rhythm, in an even deeper form of love that wants to reach you.

And so we begin together.

As I, Sophia, enter into this Now moment, into this Now moment of love with you. You are invited to feel how much closer you allow me to come into your space, into your reality, into this Now moment. Something within you says Yes bigger than ever before. And this Yes resounding from deep within you allows the arrival of so much New into your life; allows the blossoming of so many new dimensions of love within your life.

And I, Sophia, am a tone of this love, an aspect of this wisdom and love that would like so much to reach you, truly reach you. You are invited to feel that this love that I am has a very unique tone, a very unique warmth and safety and security. And whenever you choose for yourself, you may begin to embrace some of this love for you; to embrace some of this love that belongs only to you.