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1 - Your Inner Wisdom

Sunday, 08. March 2009

And so we begin together.

as I, Sophia, enter into this Now, into this Now moment with you. It is the beginning of another year of this path - this experience we share together, this experience the earth is going through right now. And I, Sophia, invite you to perceive how special our gathering is today. Once again we meet in a new way, in a different way than before.

And I, Sophia, invite you to feel that the two of us are alone with one another in this space today. The two of us are alone so that we may communicate in a very personal, intimate way. We are alone to enjoy a moment of stillness that is here now for you. This stillness that is sometimes scarce in your everyday life -this stillness that helps your body to heal, that helps your feelings to come into balance, to rebalance. This stillness that allows your mind to become soft and flexible. This stillness within you that allows you to be here in this moment just the way you are right now.

There is nothing for you to do. There is nothing that you have to change. You are invited to just be here. And if you like, I invite you to notice that I am not speaking to you from the outside, for there is no external wisdom, no external source of energy that is more, that is bigger or better than you. So today while there is no one else here except you and I - I invite you to feel how I speak to you from within and to feel how the deepest wisdom of your soul wants to talk to you also.

It’s not the wisdom of another human being; it’s not an external wisdom. It is the voice of your own wisdom that wants to be in contact with you, that wants to talk to you and invites you to hear her again.

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Most of you don’t like to acknowledge that you have a voice of wisdom. You don’t like to acknowledge that you have any wisdom at all. Deep inside you believe that there are only very few human beings on this earth who own wisdom, who have the right to express this wisdom or to embody it. And deep inside you have convinced yourself that you haven’t the right to breathe this wisdom, to live it, to express it and to share it with others. Deep inside you believe that you will always be only a recipient of wisdom, a listener but never a speaker - in the audience, but never the lead actor.

Allow yourself to feel how for so long you have held back the flow of your own source of wisdom. How for so long you have you heard your wisdom but denied it and pushed it aside. How for so long Sophia was not allowed to talk to you, was not allowed to breathe, to be alive. And this loving wisdom within you that I call Sophia is longing to become part of your life again.

In this new series that we begin together today you are invited to become the lead actor. You are invited to raise your voice. You are invited to feel what your inner Sophia wants to tell you. You are invited to feel what the deepest wisdom of your soul wants to share and express.

Oh, you might prefer to continue to think that there is only one single Sophia, that there is only one wisdom, only one path, only one answer, only one voice. Are you able to see how narrow this idea is, how very restrictive? Are you able to see how this idea has stopped you again and again from being and expressing yourself? Instead of letting your voice be heard, discovering what you have to say, what is happening within you - you focussed your attention on what others were saying. What anybody was saying that could be right, the only answer, the only way. And out of fear that you might be wrong, out of fear that there might be only one single voice and that this voice was already taken by someone else, you didn’t dare let your own voice be heard.

Allow yourself to feel for a moment that a huge part of you is so frustrated, so angry to have to sit back and listen again and again. This part of you is so annoyed. Each word that you hear in this very moment bothers this part, this aspect within you. Each channel that you read, each article, each book, each DVD, bothers this aspect within you enormously. To have to listen again, to have to be silent again, to have to wait and see again, to have to be the student again, considering if this is the right path for you.

Can you allow yourself to feel that it is not at all important what I am saying, that it doesn’t make a difference if I speak these words, that it doesn’t even have any meaning? Can you allow yourself to feel today, while the two of us are alone with one another that nothing is really said until you start saying it? That nothing is really expressed until you express it, that there is nothing to be seen until you make it visible?

You are so infinitely precious, so enormously important. And now is the time for those of you who have been silent for so long - for those of you who have been searching for the right path outside of yourselves for so long. Now is the time to allow your own wisdom again. It is there, this deep and golden wisdom within you. It is there within you, right now, in this moment.

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And I invite you to explore today how it feels to not slip out of this Now moment while you are listening to me. To not use our time in this shared space to put your life on hold, to push aside your everyday life, to leave for a while. I invite you to stay present in your surroundings, in your Now moment, in your body and in your breath.

You see: frequently you slip out. Frequently you slip out, leaving your Now moment, your body and your human self. It may be because you are used to meditating, or perhaps you believe that your present is not pure enough, not sacred enough, not beautiful or abundant enough. Perhaps you are so ashamed of your life that you use this time we share to get away now and then. Some of you fall asleep, others simply drop out. It all passes by without being felt. You just put your life on hold for a while.

I, Sophia, encourage you to invite me to be part of your life. In my eyes there is absolutely nothing wrong with your life. It is not imperfect or flawed. You haven’t made any mistakes. You don’t have to tidy your room. You don’t have to get dressed up. You don’t have to brush your hair. You can invite me just the way you are. And you may let me enter into your life just as it is right now - without hiding or fixing anything, without being ashamed. Leave all the mess scattered on the floor - the unresolved questions, the problems, all the things you are embarrassed of, the things you would like to conceal. Can you allow them to be there just as they are for now?

You see: I, Sophia am your friend – and I mean you - not an synthetic image of you, not an improved version of you - but you, just the way you are today, with all that belongs to you, including everything you like and dislike. Can you allow me to come so close with all my love, with all my wisdom and just let me be here with you?

There is nothing we need to discuss. There is nothing to say at all. Can we sit in silence and share this moment with one another here on earth while you are in your body, in your Now, in your situation that is your life?

There are some aspects within you that aren’t comfortable with this love coming so close. Some aspects of you believe that you are not worthy. How many of you as a child prayed, “Lord, I am not worthy to receive you.” Some aspects of you believe that you are not worthy to be visited where you are right now. Not worthy to be loved the way you areright now.

Can you allow yourself to feel that this unconditional love, this love without limits that is waiting here for you? It has waited here for you since the day you were born, since the moment you took your very first breath. How close may this love come towards you? How willing are you to allow this love to hold you, to fulfil you? How much love do you turn away out of fear that you are not worthy, out of fear that you do not deserve it?

Can you allow yourself to move beyond this invisible boundary? You see: each human being here on earth that expresses themselves today went beyond this invisible boundary. They began by saying: this love belongs to me. They began to own this love. They began to own their expression. They no longer pretended that they are not important, that their expression is less valuable, less meaningful. They simply began to move beyond this invisible boundary by saying: I am special. I am worthy. I am worthy to pause for a moment and listen to myself. I am worthy to raise my voice and let my words sound. I am worthy to bring my wisdom onto this earth. I am worthy.

Many of you are standing right in front of this invisible boundary. One part of you is saying: C’mon, c’mon let’s take the next step. Let’s take a deep breath and allow ourselves to hear what our own wisdom wants to tell us, what our soul wants to express. And another part of yourself is standing behind this invisible boundary and wants to stay there. It is so safe, it is so familiar. It is so content to keep you small and let the others speak. Let the others express themselves. To listen obediently, be a good child and hold your tongue.

But what do you want? What is loving and appropriate for you? What feels best for you? Where do you think all the energy goes that you don’t allow to flow - all the love that you don’t receive, all the wisdom that you don’t express? Allow yourself to feel: the energy doesn’t flow anywhere. Everything is standing still - everything is standing still waiting for you.

This coming year that we will share together, those of you who would like to share it with me - I, Sophia invite you to dare to take a further step and go beyond this invisible boundary and declare that you are special, to raise your voice and express yourself, no longer playing a good child and holding your tongue.

I, Sophia, invite you to be so much more than this, to be so much more present, so much more honest with yourself. There is nothing I can tell you that you don’t already know. There is nothing I can give you that you don’t already own.

And so we change the energy, the dynamics of our monthly gatherings. When we meet we will continue to communicate; we will continue to be in contact, to touch. But it will no longer be I who speaks the truth for you, who brings the wisdom onto this earth for you.

It will be each one of you, each one of you. You are invited to feel: which expression of Sophia do you have within you? Which quality, which love, which security and warmth does she have within you? Only when you begin to receive Sophia, the wisdom of your soul within yourself can you perceive her without, can you meet her without.

It’s up to you to decide: how much wisdom would you like to breathe and receive? How much wisdom would you like to accept for yourself, within and without, and how much wisdom would you like to deny and push aside? It’s up to you - totally up to you.

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We have begun to let the feminine energy pour onto this planet. And this feminine energy is flowing in like a loving Mama that embraces her children. This loving feminine energy embraces her children so that they may begin to grow, may begin to blossom, to expand far beyond what this loving Mama ever could herself.

This feminine energy within you loves you so dearly that she allows you to become more, to be more than she has ever been herself. She doesn’t want to hold you back; she doesn’t want you to stay small. She wants to encourage you to blossom. She nurtures you, she is the support, the wisdom you need to let your life unfold, the foundation for your life to blossom. But it is you who must first give your permission, who has to say yes to yourself, to this wonder that you really are.

Some day each child comes to a point where she notices that she is neither her mother nor her father. She feels that there is something unique deep within, her own complete and independent self.

And this self within you may begin to grow, may begin to express itself, may begin to play. Not because you have to, not because it is fashionable or trendy but because your self is longing so much to be you, breath by breath. It is longing to say what you want to say, to write what you want to write, to live in the way you want to live.

I, Sophia, come in once again with an invitation for you - with a new invitation for you. It is no longer just the invitation to breathe, to be in your body, to sink into stillness, to trust yourself. It is no longer just the invitation to let yourself be held by the feminine energy, to let her support you, to receive the new energy and bring it in closer. I invite you to open, to blossom like never before. To let your unique rhythm, your wisdom, your voice sound again, and to surrender to all that you really are. This is my new invitation for you.

Those of you who decide to take this further step in your own life and arrive even deeper within yourselves will likely find these next monthly gatherings provide you with support, inspiration, validation and encouragement.

Those of you who decide to take this step at some later time might find the information a bit difficult to understand, a bit strange or just plain boring. And that is okay. We support you along your way to taking this further step, this loving and tender step towards your blossoming. And we invite those of you who find it challenging to take this step straight away to connect with your own feminine energy, to communicate with your own Sophia, to breathe with her and receive her love.

We shall keep this gathering short today and request that you spend some time with yourself immediately following this meeting. You may perhaps allow yourself to perceive Sophia within you, to receive a special message that she has only for you - that may only be heard within you, that belongs only to you. It is like an incredibly beautiful pearl deep within you that only you may perceive, that only you may discover. No one else may give it to you nor take it away.

And so today you are invited to take this further step into a new appreciation of yourself, a new appreciation of your own unique wisdom.

And so we begin together.

Translated into English by Silvia Striebeck

Edited by Eva Smarda Carney This e-mail address is being protected from spambots. You need JavaScript enabled to view it