| 6 - The Gift of the Moon |
 |
 |
| The Sophia Series - Year 3 |
| Sunday, 02. August 2009 |
|
And so we begin together. As I, Sophia, enter this Now moment, enter here in order to be close to you, in order to spend some time with you. Today we meet in a new way. There is no one else here except you and I. It is an intimate, private gathering where you are invited to become so still - to come close to your inner being, to let yourself sink deeply into your body, to arrive where you are right now. It’s not about doing anything, achieving anything. It’s about just being here to let your breath flow, to let yourself be held, and if you like to listen to me; to listen to my energy that sounds to you from beyond, beyond the edges of the earth, in a different tone, a different rhythm, in an even deeper form of love that wants to reach you. The world has changed since our last gathering. You have changed and I have changed. We are in an era of change, of the blossoming of humanity. And each time we meet, we meet for the very first time as a part of you has blossomed during the past few weeks that was never allowed to blossom before, that was never allowed to be on this earth before, that was never allowed to contribute its sound, its melody. An aspect of you who has wanted for so long to be in this world may now live. And I, Sophia, enter here today in order to invite you to look again, to look closely and to be proud of yourself. Be proud of your courage in bringing more of yourself in. Be proud of the deep trust within you that invites you over and over again to take another step even though your mind doesn’t know where you are going. I invite you to be proud of yourself. Even if your mind can’t decide whether or not you really deserve it. If you like you may just take my word: Yes, you can be proud of yourself. Proud of everything that was able to blossom last month, that was able to awaken, able to heal. Proud of everything that you have been, proud of everything that you will be. It requires so much courage to allow your aspects to return home, to allow old wounds to surface in order to heal. It requires so much courage to surrender the old judgments, the old struggles. It requires so much courage to not know who you are anymore; to let go of your behaviors and the structures that you once hung onto and to discover more and more of yourself each day: maybe I’m more than I thought. Maybe I’m not as horrible as I thought or as I was told. Maybe I’m not as dumb, as shy, as weird as I always thought. Maybe there is much more within myself that’s just been waiting to emerge. Maybe I’m getting to know myself, experience myself and understand myself. For you see: this transformation allows you to let go of the old image that you have of yourself; the old duties that you have fulfilled, the roles that you have had, even the relationships that you carried partly for others: allow your breath to wash away these old patterns that no longer suit you, that are no longer true for you today. And let yourself discover a new awareness, a new truth, a new worth of yourself. You are so much more, so much deeper, so much greater than you ever thought and than your small mind can possibly imagine. It’s time to let go of the old image and realize that you are much more wonderful than you’ve ever envisioned. *** It takes courage to meet this new You. And I, Sophia, enter here today with this loving energy to invite you: come on, let’s perceive this new You together. Let’s perceive how much strength you really have. Let’s perceive how much depth and love truly lives within you. Let’s perceive how still it is deep within you. For you see: not until you take a moment, not until you are ready to leave the chaos of your thoughts and sink deeper into your belly and just be with you, just be with you - not until then can you really perceive yourself. I, Sophia, come from this stillness in order to perceive you; as still as the stillness within nature, as the stillness within the core of the earth, or even within the cosmos. Can you allow yourself to approach this stillness for a little while? Even if your mind prefers to remain in chaos, on a rollercoaster of thoughts, can you allow yourself to become so still to hear a new voice, a new sound, a new melody? Can you allow yourself to sink even deeper within yourself and notice: there is so much more to discover, so much more to perceive. And this awareness cannot take place in turmoil, in confusion, in passing. This awareness of your new self that is about to be born needs so much time, so much attention and love. And so I, Sophia, invite you today to allow even more time for this awareness. Some of you still feel guilty for taking extra time for yourself. You feel a kind of reluctance, a kind of shame for taking time only for yourself. Sometimes you make up excuses: you fill this space with your regular thoughts: oh, I should do something creative. Oh, I should go and clean up or take a walk or cook something or write someone or call someone. Your mind always wants to fill this space with something, fill it with an activity that distracts you from yourself; that keeps you always busy, always in motion. For your mind has this deep, deep fear and within you there is also some apprehension: what will happen when I become still and perceive only myself? What will happen? It is the same fear that each human being has who experienced a so-called enlightenment has overcome. Enlightenment is nothing other than meeting yourself for a brief moment. And in the past, even this single moment that human beings have allowed themselves has changed them to the core. And in this life you aren’t striving for this single moment that disappears again only leaving a spark of light behind. You aren’t striving to connect with yourself for only this single moment but to become permanently connected with yourself. This is not enlightenment in the old sense. This is an illumination of life. This is truly you. And just a very few human beings have really started to become so still that this closeness can take place; that you can feel yourself, that you can perceive yourself, that your own love may reach you. But you are well on your way. And that’s why I invite you to be courageous, to be courageous yet again and take some time for you - that is so important now. Even if you don’t have a problem, even if you feel fine, even if there isn’t anything to release, anything to process, even if there isn’t any particular purpose. Can you take some time only for yourself - to be there only for you, to breathe only for you, to spend time only with you and to allow yourself to get to know yourself even more? To perceive this new You; to receive this new You that you are becoming right now? This is the invitation that I, Sophia, wish to give you today. It requires courage to take time only for yourself without having an urgent reason – but simply because you honour yourself and honour the path that you have chosen to become one with yourself again. It requires courage to put everything aside for a moment and trust that nothing will fall apart, that nothing bad will happen if you are still - if you aren’t always managing everything, if you aren’t always in control of everything. But for a moment placing yourself in the centre of your own life, focusing on your own growth, your becoming of this new You. This invitation is for each one of you. You will soon realize that even if it is only for a brief moment that you allow yourself to be close to you a lot of energy will arise. As you know, you have an energy source within you and each time you connect to yourself and the wall of fear, of reluctance, of anxiety may vanish for even a moment, so much energy is freed - so much New Energy enters into your life to support you, enters like a refreshing rain that enables everything to flourish, inspires all your endeavors, transforms all your relationships. It’s like your path is filled with even more light, even more love and safety and security. *** You see: the time that you take for yourself is not lost time. It is only another way to let energy, so much energy enter into your life. And you will soon realize that these moments where you take time for yourself, where you let your energy arise and flow will enable you to let your energy flow permanently and to become this new human being a little bit more each day. To become a human being who is connected to themselves, who is one with themselves, who brings New Energy onto this earth - so much love, so much healing, so many blessings breath by breath. And it is time to honour this even more, this alchemy that is happening within you right now, to honour it even more. So many of you gave a big Yes to this transformation, but aren’t quite ready to accept the effects of this transformation as well. You blame yourself for changing, that things aren’t like you had imagined, that you aren’t as energetic as you’d like to be all the time. On the one hand you said Yes to one of the most profound changes that a human being may ever experience, and on the other hand, you are still a bit hesitant to accept the effect this change will have within your life. It’s like you have thrown a stone into the water – but you have a problem with the waves that this stone has caused. I, Sophia, invite you to be as open and willing to the consequences of this transformation as the transformation itself. If you are tired, accept this as a side effect of the transformation and take the time you need to rest. If you are sad because aspects of you feel that all that’s familiar is leaving – give yourself time to lovingly accompany these aspects back home. If angry aspects surface that want to fight the change, that feel threatened by everything that is happening - allow yourself to become still and invite even these angry aspects to return home. And if your body needs time to find a new balance, if your body is undergoing an adjustment process, a purification process – be patient. Don’t ask daily: what am I doing wrong? Don’t struggle daily with the consequences of this change but – if you choose – understand once and for all that this transformation affects everything and will be visible in all areas of your life and then make peace with it. Changes will show up in your job, in your body, in your relationships, in your creativity and even in your connection to yourself. Everywhere you look you will see the consequences of this transformation that you are undergoing right now. Can you make peace with all these consequences? Or do you want to continue saying Yes to the transformation but No to what the transformation brings along with it? It’s not being fair to yourself. For a long time you have rejected the consequences of the transformation so that you have a reason to doubt yourself, to question daily what you’re doing wrong, what’s not working, what’s not right. And I, Sophia, invite you to feel: it is only that the transformation is so much grander than your mind can imagine and it requires a much bigger Yes from you than you have given so far. This transformation that wants to take place is more than an experience of enlightenment, more than a shooting star that flashes across the night sky. This transformation that wants to take place wants to ignite a flame that will never go out. An eternal flame of life, of love, of vitality, of creativity, of New Energy. Can you allow yourself to become this new human being, to be this new human being, this new safety and security, this new love, this new greatness? To no longer doubt yourself but to truly say Yes to yourself. To accept that this change means real change. Even where you didn’t expect it, even where it is challenging and unpleasant. Transformation wants to happen there, even there. *** And as we are coming to the end of our shared time I, Sophia, have another insight for you, only for you. Last month the moon opened a huge portal that allowed so much feminine energy to enter this earth. The moon came forward and opened up for a moment to let so much feminine energy, so much feminine wisdom, so much feminine knowledge come onto this earth. The moon brought a gift for you, only for you. And if you like, if you choose, you can begin to feel this gift, to perceive this gift of loving, tender energy. Those of you who have experienced the moon as cold, dark and mysterious will be surprised how soft and warm this energy is that pours from her to you. The moon has opened to bring in this gift for you. And whenever you desire to receive it all you have to do is simply breathe it in. During the past month the feminine energy entered with a wave of love, of tenderness and wisdom that has long been forgotten. And perhaps you would like to accept the gift of the moon rather than reject it, rather than misunderstand it, rather than interpret it as something negative - but become still and feel how much the goddess of the moon loves you and only wants to show you how unique, how precious you truly are. It is the goddess of the moon, the feminine energy of the moon that has laid in the shadow for so long that wants to appear again, that invites the women of this earth to remember what feminine energy truly means, that invites the women on this earth to remember that they can allow themselves to be loved for all that they are. For so long the women of this earth especially have cared for others, loved others, given away their energy to others and forgotten to receive love. And so the goddess of the moon comes in order to remind you: you are loved. And it is a part of your grace to feel worthy of this love, a part of your beauty to embrace this love and let your radiance, your brilliance shine. The moon brings in so much for each human being. Each one of you can accept this special gift, this love and begin to let it enter your life. And this gift of the moon – for women especially but not only for women – this love that appears right now wishes to support you, to remind you of so many mysteries, of so much wisdom that has laid in the shadow for so long. And the sun, the power, the mind, the unconsciousness – all this may step aside for a moment and provide space for the feminine energy that only just discovers her own brilliance, her own freedom, her own beauty. This is an opportunity for women to allow yourself to get to know yourself again; to perceive your greatness, your radiance, your beauty. And of course the gift of the moon is also for each man who would like to open up again, who would like to embrace this particular kind of love, depth and warmth again. This is the gift, the invitation that I wish to bring to your attention today. Many human beings responded to the solar eclipse last month with fear and panic. And only a very few were ready to accept the gift, the love that the moon has brought. Be one of these courageous human beings who sees beyond the dark cloud of fear and is ready to accept the beauty, the brilliance, the perfection that life truly is. And as we come to the end of our shared time together the gift of the moon will continue to accompany you if you so choose. I, Sophia, enjoyed our time in this space that we gave to one another today and send you my blessings, my love. And so we begin together.
Translated into English by Silvia Striebeck Edited by Eva Smarda Carney
|
