And so we begin our shared time together. We begin this shared time with all those who are awakening. We invite you to be totally present, to arrive here fully as we have something very important to share with you today. And you have permission to pause in-between, to put this channelling aside whenever it becomes too much for you. But you are invited to be totally present while you are listening to it or reading it. For today we share an energy with you, an insight that will help you on your path. This insight will help you to move through a deep wound within you and walk your path in a new way.

So you are invited to observe all your feelings and perceptions within your body. You are invited to let your breath flow, not to block the energy within you but to let it flow so that healing and renewal may happen for you.

And today we talk about the power within you. And I, Mary Magdalene, am a guest within this space today, am a part of this gathering and will support you to arrive at a new feeling for your own power, and help you to understand some of the experiences that you have had with your power in a new way.

Humans have learned in such a wonderful way to withhold their own power, to hide their own power, to manipulate themselves so that it seems that they don’t have any power at all. But it’s now time to correct this. Today you are invited to get to know and to love your power in a new way and maybe even allow that this power may be part of your life again.

And as you know humans go through a healing process on their path of awakening where many layers of energy surface and get integrated. There are times when you suddenly face old memories within you, old wounds, old judgments and rules and sometimes you don’t even know were they’ve come from. They aren’t from this lifetime. Often they are a very old part of your soul’s journey. And as you now allow your soul to pour into your life in a new way it is so fitting that these old memories, these old limitations surface in order to integrate.

For you know that we are on the threshold of a new era. Or rather—we are on the threshold of a new chapter in the evolution of humanity; a further step of evolution for your soul, for you, for your body, for everything that you are. And it’s only fitting that aspects from your past integrate, heal and come to a new balance before the New may unfold in all its beauty.

Some of you are holding onto these very painful experiences within yourselves. And this holding onto past experiences blocks a part of your power. Your power that wants to create the New and dynamically unfold is occupied instead with holding onto the past. These past experiences that are very stuck, very rigid, very harsh.

And you are invited to feel as you become aware of these areas where you hold onto a part of yourself that this is also within the collective consciousness of humanity. Currently things are surfacing that have been held down for a long, long time. That’s why the oil spills into your ocean. That’s why there are severe storms or volcanoes erupt that were sleeping for a long, long time. These are all signs that these deep energies in the consciousness of humanity don’t want to be held down any longer. They want to flow, they want to heal, they want to find a new balance.

But unfortunately you don’t find a lot of people willing to let these energies flow. You don’t find a lot of people willing to let this healing happen within themselves. That’s why these changes often appear to be very threatening or very destructive, because not everyone is saying Yes and allowing their own shift that wants to happen.

Maybe it’s time that you begin to perceive: each time you allow an old memory within you to come to a new balance you not only heal yourself but also the world around you. You heal the ocean. You heal the earth. Layer by layer you heal the old energies that want to integrate.

So your awakening is not only yours personally but goes beyond that and affects everybody. Your awakening brings healing for this planet—not only for you but for all other humans, for all animals, for all plants, for all the earth around you. As it is within, so it is without. If you let healing happen within you, you also let healing happen in the external world. If you suppress healing within you because you are afraid of what wants to surface you also suppress the healing that wants to happen in the external world.

And so we include this new layer of awakening in our monthly gatherings. We will no longer speak only about the issues involved in your own awakening but also share which energies within you and the world around you are waiting to be released.

It’s time that humans become engaged in this process of awakening lovingly – not only within yourself but also around you. A while ago it might have been alright to withdraw as if you were sick or damaged and act as if this process of awakening is something that you have to hide. Maybe there was a deep impulse within you that persuaded you to withdraw, to no longer pursue your profession, maybe to only leave your house when you absolutely had to. And all these things are reasonable for a person who is not well. But these things are no longer reasonable for a person who is awakening. Awakening is not an illness. Awakening is not a stigma, not something that you should be ashamed of. Awakening is a process of healing.

And yes, there will be times when you might want to withdraw, when you might want to take more time for yourself. But that’s not all the time. Your awakening is also a journey back to your own power, back to your knowingness, back to your expression, that wants to flow into the world again.

And so you will observe that this power within you begins to stir. And if you don’t allow this power to express, if you continue to suppress this power because you are afraid of it or because negative memories are connected to it then you will find it very hard to enjoy your awakening.

Oh, some of you still haven’t realized that you can enjoy your awakening. You are often so far away from your own centre that you sometimes feel like a ball tossed around on the waves of life—from one fear to the next, from one sorrow to the next, from one physical cleansing process to the next. You still haven’t really perceived the power of awakening.

Yes, you can leave your centre and experience awakening as something terrible, threatening. But that is not your awakening. That’s a very imbalanced aspect that has overtaken you and is interfering with your awakening by making it unnecessarily hard. Your awakening can actually be joyful, loving, energizing, illuminating, fulfilling.

But the question is: how often do you stay in your centre during your awakening process? And how often do you let yourself be played with like a toy by the energies that come to integrate and then wonder: why is my life in such turmoil? Why is my awakening such a disruptive and difficult time? It’s just your perspective that either lets this time be a loving, empowering opening or a terrible nightmare.

When a shift takes place you can run away screaming in fear and you will experience this as something threatening. Or you have the option to stay in your centre, to perceive the shift and let it flow. You have the option to remain confident within your power during your awakening.

The difference—whether you stay in your centre or panic is huge. And sometimes it doesn’t take much to return to your centre but the difference is tremendous. It’s like waking up from a nightmare and suddenly noticing: everything is okay. The sun is shining. You are safe and secure. New power stirs within you. New inspiration arrives. New healing takes place.

The difference is like day and night. Do you still live on the dark side of awakening or do you allow yourself to be on the bright side? The bright side of awakening shows you what is really happening and lets you experience what awakening truly means.

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Why is it so difficult for many people to be in their power and to experience their awakening as something beautiful? Why is it so difficult for you to stay in your own power? What is it about your own power that still frightens you, that still makes you unsure? Why do you prefer being toyed with instead of staying in your power, staying in your centre?

There are many reasons why you stay in your power—or let’s say the place of your own power within you so seldom. You just pass through it. These are the moments when you feel strong, when you are happy, when you realize that life is beautiful, when you feel that what you are creating is meaningful, when you are even proud of yourself.

But why do you pass through it so seldom? Why are you like a toy that’s being tossed around and much less often in your own power?

There are many reasons for this. There are many experiences that you had while being in your power that made you finally decide that your power is something negative. It’s as if you had a painful experience in one room of your house and suddenly this room lost its appeal to you. It became uninviting and you weren’t comfortable in this room anymore. It was no longer a beautiful room for you. And so you began to avoid it, to pay less attention to it, to let fewer and fewer activities happen in this room. And at a certain point of time you closed the door so that you would never enter this room again.

And this is similar to what happened with your own power. During the evolution of your soul you had many experiences with your own power in the past. And you see: in earlier times you didn’t have as much wisdom as you do today. For your soul was much more childish, more naïve, more innocent than she is today. Just as you matured during your childhood and adolescence in order to become an adult, your soul also has matured slowly. Each experience that you have had has helped your soul to mature and awaken a little bit more. Each experience that you have had has brought a bit more wisdom, more understanding, more love into your soul. You not only learn and mature through this process—your soul also learns and matures. Even through the experiences that you have had within this lifetime your soul has matured a lot and gained more depth, clarity and compassion.

This is a natural process. And together with the growth of your soul the consciousness of humanity has also developed. Do you believe that in the Dark Ages the consciousness of humanity was as mature and wise as nowadays? This is a long, slow evolution process that brings more maturity, more wisdom and understanding into the consciousness of humanity with each experience. It’s important to understand that. Because if memories are surfacing of experiences that you once had during your process of awakening you tend to judge these memories, these experiences from long ago by today’s values.

Maybe there was a time when you created something here on this earth and you put your whole heart into it, something so precious and dear, something that meant so much to you. And maybe your soul wasn’t mature enough yet to really balance this New that you created. And so it deteriorated as time went on. For it was not whole, not balanced. It wasn’t the full truth.

It’s important to feel that these experiences with your power took place in another time when there wasn’t yet the wisdom or the sense of balance that we have today.

And we would like to talk about one energy, one experience that many humans shared that has been surfacing at this time in order to integrate. And we invite you—no matter whether you shared this experience or not, no matter which side of this experience you stood—we invite you to return to this experience and perceive how many things were based on a different understanding than you have today.

It’s an energy, an experience, a wound that slumbers deep within the human consciousness. There are many experiences similar to this but we talk about the one today that is so connected to my energy, the energy of Mary Magdalene. We want to recall this memory that all those share who followed my path; who followed this inner path of the feminine energy, who received the energy that I brought onto this earth.

And we invite you to remember that my path was different than Yeshua’s path. I came to Europe in order to continue my journey, in order to plant my energy here and anchor it in order to create places to touch the people that were ready to accept their own beauty within.

There were many groups that integrated and embodied this wisdom that are not well-known today. But there is one group whose progress and fate did enter a little bit more into the consciousness of humanity. We are referring to the group called the Cathars who began to discover their own divinity. They were the few beings during that time who gained a true, profound connection to their Christ consciousness.

And I, Mary Magdalene, taught during this time. And my teaching contained only a few words and was focused more on going within and finding that a pure light shines there that never goes out, that never falters. And the people that I met were open. Open to discover this light within themselves instead of believing that they must seek it in the external world. And they began to feel that there was something pure within, something innocent, something very beautiful. And they were touched by this insight, touched by their own power.

And maybe you had this experience, maybe you went within and touched the purity within you; touched your divinity for a brief moment. And allow yourself to feel how little this experience was compared to your consciousness today. A comparatively tiny part of you surrendered to this experience but a much larger part of you wasn’t open for this experience yet. A much larger part of you was still full of hatred, full of grief, full of anger and believed itself unworthy.

And so, when you ignited this little bright and shining light within you this little light didn’t just stay where it was but also touched the part within you that still turned away unwillingly to feel the New, unwillingly to believe that it was loved also. The darkness within all humans at that time was not ready yet to feel that it was loved and invited to participate in this pure light.

And what happens when we ignore a part of us?

The people who carried on my teaching after my death only looked at the shining light and never at the darkness that was still left off to the side, unnoticed and unloved. And that was an imbalance, a deep and very harsh imbalance.

And I, Mary Magdalene, enter here today in order to remind you of this time, no matter on which side you stood. Did you stand on the side that only wanted to see the light? Or were you on the other side—angry, rejected, misunderstood and perceiving only the darkness?

No matter on which side you stood, feel the tension between these two polarities, perceive the abyss between these two extremes. The purest light within you and the deepest darkness within you—feel how far apart they were during this time.

And maybe you can remember how the story went. The Cathars wanted to protect their light, to let it expand, to let it grow. And the darkness that was around them became greater and stronger and wanted something else. The darkness around this light became tenser and angrier. And at some point the pendulum swung to the other side and the darkness spread over everything that had ever been.

Scarcely anybody survived this experience, so completely was the pure light covered by the darkness. So many people died; so many women, so many children, so many men. So many families, whole villages and towns disappeared; extinguished by the huge darkness that no one wanted to see, that no one invited lovingly to also participate in this light.

It was not the light that you know today. Your soul hadn’t discovered yet the love that she brings into your life today. It was still a conditional love, a love that was open to only one side of life. And today we enter an era where because of the many, many experiences, because of the many tests that your soul passed a new love has matured within your soul. It is a much bigger love; a love that has much more power and grace. She is no longer the little light within you. But she is a deep warmth that acknowledges everything, accepts everything and invites everything to return home.

It is this deep unconditional love that ushers in the new era. This new era is no longer about the struggle between light and dark, but about this much bigger love that invites both sides to return home.

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This history, this experience of the Cathars and their enemies is just one example of the experiences that you and humanity went through. You are invited to perceive this story along with the memory of my energy, the inner path that I, Mary Magdalene founded, and the wounds that were part of this path that want to surface now.

You are invited to perceive that you didn’t do anything wrong, no matter which side you were on for this experience. You are invited to feel that it was an important step in the maturation and transformation of your soul that can demonstrate a new love today. No longer a love that excludes the darkness, that excludes certain people, certain experiences but a love that includes everything; a love that knows that every child has the right to return home, not only some—but all.

Everything that arises from this new love will remain. You won’t find this kind of destruction anymore where this love forms the foundation. This love forms the foundation for you, for your life, for all your creations and helps to sustain them. And if there are still some highs and lows and some chaos within your life—maybe you still play with the love from the past that only wants to accept one side of life, not everything that is.

And so we talk about this layer of awakening. Memories want to surface now. The power that you held onto deep within you wants to be released for something New. And a new understanding wants to mature within you so that it’s impossible for the same thing to happen as in the past. Because never again will the light reject the darkness as much as before, never again will it judge it as cruelly as it did then. Never again will the darkness take with force something that actually belongs to it.

You are invited to feel that this new era that is being birthed within you carries with it a new stability, a new foundation. One reason you didn’t bring in your power yet is your great fear that you might repeat the experiences of the past. But how could that ever be? When you already know how to walk—is it necessary to learn to take your first step over again? There will always be a memory within you that you know how, that you once learnt it. You will never begin at the some starting point again. Children that are born nowadays don’t arrive with the consciousness of the Dark Ages but the awareness of this day and age. They begin their life under different conditions and their life bears different fruits.

And it’s the same with the evolution of your own soul. You cannot repeat your past. But you are very capable of opening up for what wants to arise today within your life.  Some of you still deny it. You don’t want to have anything to do with the New because your anxiety is so great; your fear is so deep that something bad could happen.

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I share this story, these insights with you to encourage you to accept a bit more of your life today; to accept your experiences, to accept your awakening, to accept what it holds for you. A new era, a new energy, a new life, a new love wants to arise.

And so you are invited to no longer be overtaken by the dark side of the New but to return to your centre and take your place ready to experience what this new era holds for you.

The following is a breathing experience that we recorded following the channel:

And those of you who feel the memories of the past surfacing—memories of your time with the Cathars, or of another time that touched you deeply, or maybe even the memory that you were with those who persecuted the Cathars—no matter what kind of memories, feelings, perceptions are surfacing: we invite you to remain in this stillness for one moment and let the healing happen for you. We invite you to perceive your enemy that you met within that life for the very first time. Was it someone who chased you or somebody you chased? We invite you to be still for a moment, to perceive your enemy, to stay with your enemy. To not only open your eyes but also your feelings.

If you like let your breath flow, let yourself sink deeper into your body and stay with your enemy. Stay with your enemy. You are invited to perceive the deeper form of love that doesn’t only love yourself but also your enemy. Look at which fear talks to you from the eyes of your enemy; which sorrow, which loneliness, which anger.

And instead of judging, instead of fighting, instead of deepening the trench today—you are invited to find forgiveness within yourself breath by breath. Not a condescending, moral forgiveness that only takes place in your mind but a forgiveness that sinks much deeper into your being and accepts both sides that are there. A love that loves both you and your enemy; a love that accepts and leads both of you back to your centre. A love that brings peace for both of you—a new, brotherly, sisterly peace between both of you after a fight, after a misunderstanding that has lasted many, many years.

And so we invite you to breathe the power of forgiveness that is available for you today, that is here for you and your enemy today. And maybe you can recognize many, many people in the eyes of your enemy that you shared experiences with. And maybe the love of forgiveness may reach them as well and let healing happen where it was never possible before. This love allows space for both of you—for you and your enemy. Maybe you want to perceive how the energy of violence, of hatred and cruelty leaves your body, how your breath washes away old wounds that you carried within, how this love, this warmth within you carries you safely and carries your enemy safely also. You may share this love that is here for you. You may let this love flow that is within you and let the healing happen not only for yourself but for your enemy also.

Maybe you can perceive how tender, how disarming this love, this forgiveness really is. For it is the answer to the deepest question, the deepest need, the deepest longing that each human being holds within. This love, this forgiveness is the answer.

So this is not only a time of awakening but also a time of deep encompassing forgiveness, of a deep love that wants to arise for you. This deep love merges the opposites, bridges the separation, creates friendship between enemies, and heals the wound.

Allow yourself to breathe this love, to let this healing happen within yourself and within your enemy and to feel how a new access opens up to your own power. Let your breath flow for as long as you want. Come back to this forgiveness as often as you like and watch what happens within your life.

Translated into English by Silvia Striebeck

Edited by Eva Smarda Carney
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About channeling:
Channeling is about receiving energy. It is an invitation for you, dear reader, to open for more of yourself and become more conscious. As you read this text you are most welcome to decide for yourself what feels right for you and what doesn’t. There is no such thing as an absolute truth that is valid for everyone. There are many truths and you may choose the one that resonates with you today. On your path of spiritual awakening this may indeed change. Sophia’s extends her love and support if you wish to receive it, right where you are in this moment - you don’t have to do a thing in return.

About Sophia:
Sophia is a feminine energy supporting the awakening and evolution of humanity with her understanding and wisdom. Her messages are simple and profound. Lea Hamann has been working for some time in her personal and professional life with Sophia’s energy. In 2007 Lea started to channel Sophia publicly. Sophia has accompanied us since then in monthly channels called the Sophia-Series. She assists us in rediscovering the feminine energy of our soul.
Feminine energy doesn’t necessarily mean being female. Both men and women have a feminine part of their soul. This feminine principle helps us to receive abundance, to develop our creations and to live our life in deep trust. In today’s world most humans have a tendency to be imbalanced as they rely much more on their masculine energy. Sophia has emphasized many times how important it is to be connected to the feminine energy in order to enjoy a loving and balanced life.
The monthly channels of the Sophia-Series are available free of charge on the website www.eelea.de You are invited to let yourself be touched by Sophia’s love.

About Lea Hamann:
Lea Hamann, born in 1982, works as a teacher and compassionate guide to humans on their path of spiritual awakening. She teaches conscious breathing and the re-connection to the feminine energy through private sessions and workshops. Sophia’s wisdom is an inseparable part of Lea’s work. Sophia’s love is always present in her sessions and workshops. Lea Hamann is currently living with her partner Matthias Kreis in Königstein, Germany, near Frankfurt.

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