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5 - A New Relationship with Your Soul

Sunday, 13. July 2008

Foto: Benzi www.photocase.com

And so we begin...

...and so I Sophia come in. Come in to be with each one of you. To be with each one of you who are present in this space. I come in to spend some time with you, to share some energy with you. I come in to take one more step together with you, one more step on the way to yourself, one more step on the way to your own soul.
Today we will speak about how it is now time for you to learn a new way to be in touch with your soul. It is now time for you to know, to perceive a new side of your own soul.

And I, Sophia want to invite you to come to rest, just where you happen to be now, to be with everything that makes up your present moment, with everything that happens to be on your mind. All of that is invited to be here. There is nothing that you have to hide. Nothing that is unworthy to be in this space. Even the things that you are ashamed of, the things that you would like to conceal, the things that you are not that sure of. Even these things are allowed to be here. Right now. They are a part of you, a part of this very special now.

You see: Today we share a very special moment. And this special moment is comprised of all of the things that are on your mind, of all of the things that you are feeling from your past, from your present, from your future. You see: Everything belongs here in the present moment. This moment would not be what it is if even a little part was missing, if only a little bit of you was left out. It just wouldn't be the same.

And this is why I invite you today to just be here. To just be here in the way that you happen to be today. To feel the trust that is present in this space today. The stillness that is present in this space today. This space of the feminine energy that we are holding together, that we are creating together. Again and again.

You may have noticed lately how many more people have become aware of the feminine energy. Perhaps they’re not necessarily saying: I have become aware of the feminine energy. Perhaps they simply say: I have realized that I need a bit more rest for myself. Perhaps they simply say: I have realized that something is missing in my life and I don't know what it is yet exactly. Or perhaps they say: I long for safety. I wish that there was finally peace in my life. And you see: All these statements indicate that a person has begun to perceive feminine energy in him or herself again.

You will also notice old stories reappearing now. Stories and legends that refer to the feminine energy that were long forgotten reappear now because consciousness is open for it, because humans want to know the feminine energy again. Because they are asking: What is it really? What does it feel like? How can I experience this feminine energy in my life?

And you will notice that more people who have integrated the feminine energy within themselves now appear, step forth and arouse public interest. They are not necessarily women, you see. They are simply humans receiving the feminine energy within themselves again. And you will recognize them for they are balanced. You will recognize them for their gentleness, their warmness, their soft voice and simple way of speaking and expressing themselves and that they carry within themselves a great amount of tranquility and safety.

And you are simply invited to observe this development: This evolution that began an infinitely long time ago. This evolution that is appearing now, that becomes visible now for each one of you. This evolution which will move the world into a new balance. A new balance between opposites.

You see: The world, the humans that inhabit the world want to find a new center, a new balance. Perhaps some of them say that they want to find a new justice, a new stability, a new peace. They want to even out some of the differences between rich and poor. They want to make communication between countries flow again. They want limits and restrictions to loosen or to vanish so that energy might be able to flow more easily, more simply and more freely.
And I, Sophia invite you to feel: Just as the world is trying to find a new balance, your soul, your consciousness is also trying to find a new balance.

You see: The world is a reflection of you. Everything that you see in the outside world, all these things, you also carry within yourself. Within yourself there is tension, there is war, there is hunger and poverty, there is wealth and wisdom, beauty and truth. Everything that is within you can also be seen reflected on the outside. And just as the outer world yearns for balance, your inner world also yearns for a new balance.

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And I wish to take some time on this special day to ask you a few questions. And you are invited to answer not from your mind, to not give the answers that you think are the right ones, but I invite you to sink a bit deeper – to the place where you can feel your real answers, where you can feel what is really your truth.

I invite you to feel - when was the last time that you felt completely safe? I invite you to feel your answer. When was it that you felt completely safe? Safe in every single cell of your being. Absolutely safe - within your body, within your life, allowing as much life energy to stream through you as it wants. When was the last time you felt that safe? Safe and secure. So safe and secure that nothing else existed other than your well-being. Can you remember? Can you perceive anything? It’s so vague, it’s so vague, an intuition perhaps, so deep within you, so far away that it seems hardly more than a dream. You don’t need to understand it. It doesn't have to make sense.

I invite you to feel today – to feel: When was the last time that you received love for your self? When was the last time that you breathed in love for your self? When was the last time that you felt a great stream of love flow through your body? An infinite love, an infinite safety, an infinite abundance. When was the last time that you felt this love, merged with this love? I invite you to feel that. It is a memory which might be almost out of reach, only a faint memory. I invite you to feel.

I also want to invite you to perceive: When was the last time that you felt cared for? When was the last time that you felt that there is something that cares for you, something that nourishes you, that gives you everything you need in every single moment? When was the last time that you felt that somebody wants to care for you, that somebody wants to nourish you, support you? When was the last time that you perceived this?

And those of you who allow yourselves to really feel, to really perceive, might realize how long ago, how distant this feels. How long has it been since you felt that safe? How long has it been since you received this love? And how long has it been since you felt that you are cared for? Cared for in every way. It seems so long ago. It seems so infinitely long ago.

For some of you who remember, who allow yourselves to feel this memory, it almost seems as though I’ve spoken to you about paradise. Paradise where you were safe, where you were secure and loved. Where there wasn't anything but security, safety and being cared for. And how long has it been since you lost this paradise, since you forgot this paradise? How long has it been since you perceived your soul in this way? How long has it been since you perceived the feminine side of your soul? How infinitely long has it been?

For it is the feminine side of your soul which allows you to be safe. It is the feminine side of your soul that fills you with love and it is the feminine side of your soul that nourishes you and cares for you. And it has been such a long time since you perceived your soul in this way. It is so infinitely long ago. And a part of your consciousness has already begun to forget, has ceased searching for it, and has resigned itself to the fact that this kind of love, this kind of well-being is lost forever. A part of you has resigned itself to the fact that the door to paradise is locked, that there is no way to return. A part of you has resigned itself to the fact that much in life is hard and cruel, that again and again you find yourself hurting and all on your own, that this is your punishment or your destiny and that you must suffer.

You have settled for it, accepted that this love isn’t available to you any more, that this safety isn't available to you any more. You have settled for having lost paradise and deep within you are convinced that it was your fault. You are so convinced that it was your fault that this love gradually disappeared, that this safety, this being cared for has withdrawn. Deep within you are convinced that your soul doesn't love you the way it had before.

Some of you call it God. And you believe that God doesn't love you the way he or she did in the beginning. You believe that you have done something horrible, done something forbidden, committed a sin, and that God has thrown you out of paradise - and that was what you deserved.

I, Sophia invite you to perceive how deep this conviction dwells in you. This conviction that you have sinned. It is so deep and so ingrained that you would easily believe me if I told you: You have sinned. You would be ready to accept it and to believe it. It would be much more difficult for you if I said: You are innocent. Something in you finds it terribly difficult to believe that. Something in you covers its ears when it hears: You are innocent. You didn't commit any sin. You didn't trespass, didn't break any law, didn't fail to keep any promise that you made. You didn't do anything wrong.

But as every child begins to believe that they did something wrong when they see that their parents are not happy or that their parents don't have time for them, you started to believe that you did something wrong. That your soul is punishing you. That your soul doesn't love you any more. That your soul has broken this bond of love and safety which was always there between you.

And I, Sophia invite you. I invite you to feel this pain that dwells in you, to perceive this shattered trust in your own soul. It is as though you had betrayed, abused, and abandoned the most beautiful thing you ever knew. As though the most beautiful thing you ever knew suddenly became hostile and threatening.
Your trust in the feminine energy within you that was at one time closer to you than anything, this bond of love became torn and broken, became so broken that you made a decision not to search for it any more, not to miss it anymore, not to remember it any more.

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And if you look at the world today, you will see that you are not the only one to have forgotten the feminine energy within yourself. No, most humans have chosen to have it this way. Chosen to forget the feminine energy, to forget this love which was so important to them, so precious to them. They have chosen to forget all of the legends. All of the rituals, all of the ceremonies held on behalf of the feminine energy have been lost, have perished. The places where humans used to connect with the feminine energy, the places in nature, the places in your religion, in medicine, in wisdom, in your everyday life: All these realms have slowly fallen into oblivion. They are forgotten and have vanished. And there was such a readiness to erase the feminine energy and all her creations, to make it unrecognizable, to forget forever all the knowledge that she had brought in. And there was such a readiness to suppress this quality of your soul, this side of your own soul.

The feminine energy is still here. She is still here. The wisdom of the feminine energy is still here. And all of her legends and stories, all of the representations of the feminine energy are still here. Still here - today more than ever before.

And I invite you today to feel that you are in the middle of an awakening, of an awakening, a recognition of the feminine energy within you. And yes, it causes pain to speak about it. It causes pain to feel it and to remember. And it is now time, it is now time to give permission to yourself to perceive the wholeness of your soul again.

For it is the first time that your soul doesn't ask you to choose between the masculine and the feminine energy. Your soul is not interested in having you choose one way or the other. Your soul is not interested in you surrendering to one extreme, but your soul invites you today to experience it in its wholeness for the first time, to observe how slowly from the depth, from the void something is emerging that has been lost for such a long time. Something like a memory, like a sound, like a vibration, emerging in order to make you whole.

It is the feminine energy awakening from her sleep, awakening from her stupor. And you see: The place within you where you perceived this terrible void, the place within you where you felt so lost and so lonely, this place wants to fill again. The feminine energy in you is ready to fill this space again, this space within you which is devoted to healing, this space within you that is devoted to nurturing and allowing growth. This space within you which is there to carry you, to sustain you. This space within you which is there to nurture you.

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Some of you can feel the strong support of the reemerging feminine energy in your body. Others of you may feel a soft joy, a gentle safety. You may realize how slowly and gracefully the feminine energy finds her way back. And she returns with so much wealth. She returns with so many gifts that she wants to give you.

Some of you may see this energy as a kind of mother. Not like your human mother who seldom remembered what the feminine energy really is and what it means, but as this kind of mother - this mommy who is much deeper within you, much more connected to you, much more still, much more powerful, much more loving. It is the love of your soul which expresses itself through this mommy within you. This mommy who wants to hold you, wants to carry you after such an infinitely long time. This mommy who has been separated from her child for so long, who has missed her child for such an infinitely long time.

The feminine energy has suffered from this separation just as much as you have - from this chasm, this distance that has arisen between both of you. Just as it causes great pain for a mother to not be able to access her own child, not be able to care for her own child, not be able to hold her own child – it caused great pain for your soul not to be allowed to care for you in the way it wanted. It caused great pain for your soul not to be allowed to be there for you, not to be allowed to embrace her children, not to be allowed to nourish them and care for them. And above all, during this period of separation, it wished so badly to reach you and to tell you that you hadn't done anything wrong.

You see: It was her greatest desire to let you know that you hadn’t done anything wrong. But she felt how you assumed the guilt for all of these experiences and how you began to believe that you hadn’t been good enough and had done something wrong. And most of you still believe this today.

How often do you think that you have done something wrong? How often, if something doesn't work out the way you had wished do you believe that the reason is that you have done something wrong? If some anguished part of you surfaces, then you believe that you have done something wrong. If you get angry or feel lonely, then you believe that you have done something wrong.
Your soul invites you today to dare a new beginning. A new beginning for you and for the feminine energy of your soul.

And I, Sophia invite you: Would you like to feel the love of your soul again? Would you like to feel that there is something there for you that loves you infinitely, that simply wants to hold you, wants to care for you? Yes, you have tried to care for yourself on your for such a long time. You have tried to create abundance and wealth in your own way for such a long time. But now you are invited: Would you like to feel the natural form of love which comes into your life without force, without striving and without struggling? Would you like to feel the natural form of peace which you have so badly missed return to you without your having to do anything at all?

The more that the feminine energy is allowed to come back into your life, into your consciousness, into your perception, and the more that you can say 'yes' to this love within you - the more that you will feel the natural form of wealth, the natural form of safety. You will feel how all these things that you were looking for - that you were striving for - you will realize how natural and innate they really are.

How many of you strive for wealth, strive for financial balance as you are not aware that this balance is something natural which wants to come back into your life? We will discuss this topic further on another occasion.

But today we have come together in order to invite you to give your permission. You see: The feminine energy is ready to return to you, ready to return into your life, but it waits for your permission. It is waiting for your 'yes'. And perhaps today is when you want to give this 'yes' here in this safe space, this space which holds and carries you, which allows you to blossom, allows you to grow. Perhaps this is the right moment to give your 'yes'.

We will be silent for a moment and you are invited to honestly feel if this is the right moment for you. And it doesn't matter if this is the right moment or not. You can choose any other moment, any moment in the future to give this permission.

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And some of you realize how difficult it is to give this 'yes'. For just as you blamed yourselves for all the suffering and for all the loneliness in your lives, you have also blamed the feminine energy for your suffering and loneliness.

Feminine energy in her great love has taken on herself all this guilt, all this darkness. It has been part of her love for you to say: Yes, I will carry this darkness for you. Yes, I will carry the guilt for you. Yes, I will carry the blame for you. If you want, I will carry the responsibility for you. And for a long, long time a major part of the anger and of the desperation of all humans was directed towards the feminine energy.

You see, it was not by accident that the places of the feminine energy have been destroyed, the temples pulled down, the communities dispersed – and that the individual women or humans who carried the feminine energy within themselves were the first to be blamed: You are guilty. You are held responsible for things not going the way we would like them to go.

And for a long time it has been the task of the feminine energy to take this guilt upon herself, to carry this suffering. And many of you who are living in a female body feel this in every moment – feel that you are carrying a great deal of pain within you, which is not about you.

It is the wound of Isis which we are speaking about. It is this guilt that you have taken upon yourself. We address this today so that it might become clearer to you why you sometimes have difficulties opening yourself for the love of your soul, and surrendering to this security and to this safe space within you. For a part of you does believe that somewhere there is someone guilty, that there was something wrong about the experiences that you have had, and this is why it is difficult for you to let a new trust grow, a new trust in your soul, a new trust in yourself.

And I, Sophia represent the deep wisdom alive in every human being which is also alive in you. And this wisdom in you sees more than your fear can see. This wisdom in you has a broader view of all the things that ever happened to you, all of the things that you ever experienced.

You see, this wisdom within you invites you to see that nobody is guilty in this story. The masculine energy is not guilty. The feminine energy is not guilty. Nor are you. Nobody did anything wrong.

And perhaps you want to begin to perceive and to grasp that. And perhaps you want to understand, understand, understand so deep within you that it doesn't make sense to blame yourself or your soul. It doesn't make sense. It blocks you and it keeps you from progressing.

Those of you who realize: I distrust this love in me. I distrust this wisdom, this safety in me. I would be better off not feeling it. Those of you who are scared by my voice, who are scared by the love in my voice: You are still blaming the feminine energy.

Those of you who realize that you are scared by the masculine energy or who feel a deep aversion or hatred towards the masculine energy: You are blaming the masculine energy, and it doesn't serve anyone. It doesn't get you anywhere. It blocks you from finding a new balance.

We are living in a time, you are living in a time, in which these accusations and these condemnations are more present than ever. Condemnations are made so quickly – an individual, a family, or an entire country is blamed so quickly. Humans have never been so quick to condemn and right now there is wisdom needed in you, wisdom is needed that shows a new way beyond blame. The wisdom that invites you to become silent. And instead of choosing condemnation, invites you to feel again, to perceive again.

You see: Judging something is so quick and easy. By judging yourself you can avoid really perceiving yourself. The moment you say: I have done something wrong, in this moment you stop really perceiving yourself and feeling the truth that lies much deeper than this judgment.

I, Sophia invite you to become aware of when you are judging, and to reflect if it’s because you don't want to sink a bit deeper into yourself to where your wisdom dwells, where you can really feel, where you can perceive what your truth is.

I invite you to set aside your old prejudices and to feel in a new, open way who the feminine energy within you really is. There are so many prejudices and fears associated with this part in you and none of them get you anywhere.

I invite you to really feel, to remember this love in you, this safety in you, this part in you that has been lost for such a long time. I invite you to allow the feminine energy within you to resurrect, and to make up your mind if you want to give this permission, this permission to be complete. This permission to be able to feel everything in you again. For that is what I invite you to do.
And some of you feel: it is time. It is time to grow beyond old prejudices. It is time to feel more, to perceive more and to allow more to blossom than ever before.

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You are standing on the threshold of a new awakening. An awakening deep within you. It is a part of you that lay in the shadows for such a long time - that lay dormant for such a long time and now wants to awaken again. And there is so much wealth hidden in this part. And you will realize that the humans that begin to receive the feminine energy again and to arrive in their center even more - you will realize that they have a special charisma, that they appear to be especially peaceful, that they are especially relaxed and that they manage their financial affairs in a seemingly natural way and without struggle, that they are part of this world, that they take part in this world and still go their very own way without making the world their enemy, without being in opposition. Instead they will be the ones that allow themselves to really be themselves, who feel at ease and at home in this world, who allow good health to grow and blossom in their body.

You will know them from their eyes being so childlike, looking out onto the world in such an innocent and radiant way, for they are not alone any more, and they aren't hungry any more and they aren’t separated from the love within them any more.

I, Sophia invite you: Let the feminine energy return into your life and enjoy all the abundance it will bring you, all the safety that you will feel. It is not a wealth, a health, or a balance that comes from outside but it is a wealth that dwells within you, a health that dwells within you. And since energy flows very slowly in this world it will be a gradual, gentle awakening. Don't expect miracles overnight, but do expect miracles to lie ahead of you. Be ready to be amazed. Expect to feel really secure within yourself for the first time, to be really safe, to really know that everything you need is there for you. These are the gifts, these are the miracles that happen if the feminine energy returns into the world, into consciousness and into you.

It is a joy for me, Sophia to accompany you on this way, to marvel at how you develop, how you go on your way, step by step. It touches me to see how daring you are, how ready you are to continue on and on, to receive a bit more each time, to feel a bit more each time.

It is a joy for me, Sophia to be a companion for you on your way and for the very first time I want to invite you to perceive that my presence accompanies you if you so desire, that my presence, my love supports you, even if you do not hear my voice. It makes no difference whether you are listening to a CD and you hear my voice in this way, or if you are or if you aren't reading a channeling.

My presence is grounded on the earth, and at any moment that you need help, you feel alone or confused, you may call on me for my assistance. You may call on me whenever you need me. You may lean on me whenever you need someone to lean onto. It is my gift to you. It is what I really am: the energy of Sophia that returns to this world with all her wisdom, with all her presence.

And you are invited to feel: I am a part of you, too. I am a part of every soul. And that is why it is so appropriate that you use my help whenever you desire. It is not an indication of weakness, but it is a form - one form of many - of reunion, of reuniting with the feminine energy.

And with this offer, with this invitation to each one of you we are drawing to a close our meeting of today and we want you to know that the love of the feminine energy accompanies you wherever you go.

And so we begin together...

Translated into English by Heinz Lindeman
www.diewoge.de

Edited by Eva Smarda Carney
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